I don't WRESTLE

pinkpoodle6 @ 2006-09-10T23:53:00

2006-09-11T03:56:25Z

wow. i seriously seriously have abandoned my livejournal. i feel awful after going through it that i have stayed away for so long. and to think this was the one place where i would come and say everything i felt and i could keep it all here and not have to worry about anything. there is no need to really update but i just felt the need to write here for old time sake. i will say this... it's really time that i get it together. as corny as it is that is my theme for right now... just getting my life together. this is the most important thing to me and i'm not letting anything get in my way.

pinkpoodle6 @ 2006-05-17T00:28:00

2006-05-17T04:41:32Z

hmmm... let's see here, where do i even begin.
within the last few weeks i have gone up and down so much that i think i might just throwup just thinking about it.

i'm so ready to get all my shit together so i can just leave.
i need this new job like nobody's business.
i also need a new car the t-mobile just isnt cutting it anymore.

in the fall i will be changing my major to art, and next spring i hope to transfer to the art institute where i will be majored in fashion design.
it's so true when people say no matter what, at the end of the day if you arent happy with your choices in school you just wont perform.
for past five years i have been trying to be something i'm just not.
i think for once ill finally be happy, being who i really am.

pinkpoodle6 @ 2006-04-22T11:41:00

2006-04-22T15:45:16Z

it's like im never on here anymore.

too much to do and i havent been in class for like 2 weeks.
finals and finishing the tatt.
thats all that is on my mind now

the past week has been hell glad it is finally over.

i really cant wait until school is done. i'm never ever coming back.
ok ok i lied, but still it's so nice to pretend every once and a while.

pinkpoodle6 @ 2006-03-29T22:07:00

2006-03-30T03:09:22Z

something's missing and i just can't quite put my finger on it.

pinkpoodle6 @ 2006-03-12T02:21:00

2006-03-12T07:23:44Z

im crunk. its fun. i love to be crunk hahahaha i'm watching beverly hills ninja.
got to wake up at 9:30 lets see if this happens.

pinkpoodle6 @ 2006-02-12T10:06:00

2006-02-12T15:07:48Z

something big is about to happen.
i just know it.

pinkpoodle6 @ 2006-01-29T12:54:00

2006-01-29T17:55:26Z

dyingwithyou/dyingwithoutyou.

pinkpoodle6 @ 2006-01-27T14:46:00

2006-01-27T19:48:40Z

the parents are out of town. sounds like a super plan!!!!
next week i have to buckle down though. this is going to suck.

i might finish this later if the day gets any better...

pinkpoodle6 @ 2006-01-16T10:08:00

2006-01-16T15:09:34Z

things are only about to get even more weird.

candles burning low...

2005-12-26T16:47:19Z

this christmas was actually wayyyy more relaxed than i anticipated it to be. didnt really do anything since everyone was doing the family thing and i guess i was supposed to be doing that aswell. i got some neat gifts which wasnt too bad, including the shoes that are going to change my life. they are the best. pink and teal sauconys how could they not???
i dunno geselle got them for me from urban outfitters, so thats pretty cool. anywho... yesterday was ok got up early to get ready for church, then went over geselle's to exchange gifts, went home did nothing, decided i needed a nap, and right before i could lay my head, the phone rang and it was the last person i expected to call me and wish me a merry christmas!!!! hahaha he is a tard. we'll see where this one goes after the fifty and millionth and one times that i have said i wouldnt talk to him anymore. pretty gay. still havent really hung out with miche, which is lame. it's our mom's faults. always having something gay for us to do. hanging out with amber on saturday was the best. that was needed seeing how we haven't hung out in foreverrrrrrr. anyway... times are good and its time to ride.

pinkpoodle6 @ 2005-12-23T00:00:00

2005-12-23T05:05:14Z

things are just so incredible right now.

pinkpoodle6 @ 2005-12-15T10:55:00

2005-12-15T15:56:20Z

yessss!!! classes are over bitches!!!!!!
i'm so sussited!!!!

pinkpoodle6 @ 2005-12-12T23:32:00

2005-12-13T04:33:47Z

things are all becoming different.
everything changes everyday.
all the feelings, and moods.
nothing is consistent in my life anymore.
i am just dying for my much needed vacation.
i need to clear my head.
i need some time to relax, before my head and heart both explode.

i wonder what will happen this year, even though it doesnt really feel like christmas at all.
i just want to be around my friends, have some fun, and forget about all the crap that is going on.

i ~~love~~ this time of year.

you have to believe it.

2005-12-06T04:11:05Z

as school is winding down, everything is just adding up.
for the rest of this week and up until wednesday of next week no time for playing around.
i got to get all my crap done, and done right.
afterwards i have the entire christmas vacation to look forward to.
i can't wait to be with my friends, and i can't wait especially for miche to come down.
i miss that ho.

other than that i really don't care about anything else.
i have to just be concerned with myself right now for too many reasons.

i have to pretend that this is all exciting other wise i'll ignore everthing.

i hate assholes, they always pick me.

2005-12-02T18:16:46Z

no one ever seems to understand why i can be so up tight about things.
i really don't feel good,and i haven't been at all lately.shit is pretty messed up these days and just because i don't go around crying and telling people my problems doesn't mean that it's not. i guess being a bitch is how i deal with it. and i'm sorry if i am taking it out on the wrong people, i really don't mean it. i know it's not right but it's how i am. i think its primarily for the fact that i tend to let a certain someone walk all over me so i tend to try to be some sort of "gangsta bitch" to everyone else.

im going nucking futs!!!!!

thirteen more days

2005-12-01T04:15:38Z

it's quite annoying how many things i have to do by friday. school is for suckers i swear. and instead of me doing what i have to do what am i doing? procrastinating. it's great! i think i'm procrastinating for the most part because i can't even figure out what i should do first. ughhh!!! i'm starting to annoy myself.

on a lighter note... i think things are starting to get better.
then again how many times have i said that for like this month??? ha! i don't even noe. what else could possibly happen?
i hope nothing else atleast until christmas and my birthday is over and done with.

bye bitches.

HAPPY GOOD DAY!!!

2005-11-28T17:29:53Z

i'm officially declaring that today will be a good day.
let you know how that ends up later.

pinkpoodle6 @ 2005-11-23T10:37:00

2005-11-23T15:39:15Z

i cannot wait until this stupid day is over!!!!!

why do i have to go 2 bio?

maybe it's cuz im crunk...

2005-11-19T06:54:34Z

i love him so much.

pinkpoodle6 @ 2005-11-17T20:27:00

2005-11-18T01:37:47Z

What if there was no line?
Nothing wrong, nothing right.
What if there was no time?
And no reason or rhyme.
What if you should decide, that you don't want me there by your side.
That you don't want me there in your life.

What if I got it wrong, and no poem or song
Could put right what I got wrong
Or make you feel I belong
What if you should decide that you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life.

Oooh, that's right
Let's take a breath jump over the side
Oooh, that's right
How can you know it if you don't even try
Oooh, that's right

Every step that you take could be your biggest mistake
It could bend or it could break
But that's the risk that you take
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there in your life
That you don't want me there by your side.

Oooh, that's right
Let's take a breath jump over the side
Oooh, that's right
How can you know it when you don't even try
Oooh, that's right

Ohhhhh

Oooh, that's right
Let's take a breath jump over the side
Oooh, that's right
You know that darkness always turns into light
Oooh, that's right

pinkpoodle6 @ 2005-11-09T09:08:00

2005-11-09T14:17:19Z

things have been starting to get better lately...

this weekend was one of the best in a loooooooooooooooong time.

friday-went to hardrock at bayside, ate with stiff, and geselle.
we met this old spanish guy at the little spanish club that's there, he taught geselle the bachata.

saturday-ran around all day... between the nail shop and the mall and other misc. places.
went clubbing that night. went to club deep, and bambu. (interesting) bambu was way better.
lesson learned that night: we are going to be clubbin in the grove instead of south beach.

sunday-even though we only had like 4hrs of sleep we still woke up and went to church. (we were too excited for church) afterwards, we were supposed to get pierced but the guy wasnt there. afterwards went to this restuarant called "buca di bepo" or something like that, in miami lakes for stiffy's birthday. (she's finally legal fellas!!!!!!) later on... didnt go back to church cuz it was too late, ended up dropping geselle off at her house and that was that.

monday-school ew.

tuesday- met with advisor (great), english ew.

today- more school, later... finally going to get pierced!!! this ought to be interesting, later church.

well that was a very unnecessary recap of my week
bye niggas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

never more felt like a red headed step child in my life

2005-10-31T01:05:51Z

the hurricane sucked... what's new?
ate mama jennies so much it hurts.
went to work on sat. cleaned the pool, and gave away ice and water to the people in the community.
went 2 church

went back home... then that's when all the bullshit climaxed.
my mom doesn't like me, she really doesn't.
she kicked me out, but the funny thing is i was leaving anyway.
packed my crap, and rode.

never staying at the crib for more than 24hrs again.
consider me offically moved out.

pinkpoodle6 @ 2005-10-20T20:21:00

2005-10-21T00:23:59Z

you've pushed me to the edge, and before i can fall i'll shove you head first.

pinkpoodle6 @ 2005-10-17T20:23:00

2005-10-18T00:24:30Z

He was in the habit of taking things for granted
Granted, there wasn't much for him to take
And the only thing constant was the constant reminder he'd never change

pinkpoodle6 @ 2005-10-16T04:12:00

2005-10-16T08:17:34Z

the past two days i've spent drinking and puffing my problems away...
i really wish you had a clue.
you just can't seem to grow up and be a fucking man.
you don't know what you want... well then it's quite obvious that you don't want me.
i just wish that i could grow up and realize that this will never be.

the fairy tale that you read in story books will never be us.

my patience is running on E